Since I’ve been silent until last week about my pregnancy, I wanted to write out a full recap of the 1st trimester and what I’ve experienced! In fact, this week, all my posts are going to be baby talk. Baby talk, body talk, and belly talk.
-I thought I was scoring big with a complete lack of morning sickness . . . And though I’m thankful that my first 2 months were so normal in the bodily sense, this initial lack of sickness was a big part of the reason we chose not to extensively share our news until the first trimester was over and done with–I was concerned by this lack of symptoms. What did it mean? That maybe nothing was actually happening?? That this whole pregnancy thing was just a figment of my overly active imagination? Some kind of psychologically induced placebo pregnancy?
- . . . up until week 9. Starting week 9, the complication began. I traveled to Indore, for rakshabandhan festival. I was about to leave Indore in next 2 hours. My sister insisted on having an ultrasound done. Train was at 4:00 PM, I had an ultrasound at 1:00 PM. And that was it..... my first trimester complications started to show up. There was a hemorrhage at bipolar region. I was put on complete bed rest. It was all too scary for me. I was reduced to a helpless pile on the couch, not wanting to eat, and crying because I felt so helpless. My husband was a not supporting me through this, I begged him to come to Indore to meet me to support me but he would not listen to me. I was scared what if I miscarry. I wanted you badly with me. I knew you love me, but my love wasn't enough for you to come and meet me which always made me more sad. That was the time I would wait for your call whole time but you were busy in your own world. I was irritated felt lonely.
- . . . up until week 12.
